I spent the weekend with my sister in Brighton. I am so blessed that we have been side by side during our healing journeys, we speak the same language, and understand each other, it is so important to have community, and this weekend felt very nourishing to be together.
In 2017 we both studied and became Crystal Dreaming practitioners. I have spent the last 4 years working with clients using this modality, and I plan to train to teachCrystal Dreaming later in the year. (My sister has chosen to focus on her birth work, but when we are together she can guide me through the shamanic process) This weekend we gave each other healings and I thought I would share part of my journey with you.
I lay down, surrounded by the crystal mandala, I began to relax and could feel my consciousness changing. I was excited, what would the healing session reveal? Would I be lucky enough to receive clear guidance? Often I am, but not always…
Fairly quickly in the session, I became aware of a pyramid, it was in the distance, and I was intrigued. The next thing I knew, everything was black, my sister asked me what was happening, I said I didn’t know, it was black, perhaps I was inside the pyramid… and then I felt myself lying on a slab, a kind of table, made out of stone. I was aware of an initiation taking place, I could feel myself leave my body, I felt the bliss of becoming one with Divine Mother, in that lifetime, this was the moment my physical life ended. But I knew I had a choice now, I could choose to return to my body and carry out the work I was on earth to do. A choice to continue the initiation. I had an opportunity to change my experience, I chose to re-enter my body, to live, to continue the work, and be on earth.
I made the choice to return and the initiation continued, I was filled with a lot of light, my physical body was vibrating as I expanded energetically, the sensation was unusual, powerful, and I knew the more I expanded, the more light I could embody, the closer I will become to understanding more of myself.
After the initiation, I was met with the most brilliant bright white light, in the form of Divine feminine, when I asked who I was standing before, I knew instantly it was Shekinah, Divine Mother, her light-filled me.
As I merged with her light I had an understanding, I realised that my longing to be with the Divine, has meant that I have spent much of my time here on earth school impatiently waiting, waiting for the finish line, waiting to be in bliss with the Goddess. I have had an underlying feeling of never being quite good enough. Whatever I do, I am always coming from this place of trying very hard to be good enough, to obtain salvation. This has played out in very subtle yet powerful ways in most areas of my life.
This wasn’t a brand new revelation, but the healing that occurred was new. Knowing that we can create heaven on earth, is a powerful realisation. I now chose to be here, to be present on earth, to enjoy the ride, and to focus on the now. I feel changed, more whole, more complete.